A sparrow when I'm broken, and eagle when I fly.....

Welcome to my world. I am an ordinary wife and mom who has been extraordinarily blessed by an amazing husband and house full of beautiful children. My prayer is that you will be somehow blessed by our family's story. It is a tale of God's grace and forgiveness...His loving kindness and patience with us His children as we strive & struggle everyday to bless His name with our lives

Friday, March 13, 2009

This is really hard...

.....this waiting for children to come home. We learned yesterday that the courts refused to hear Assefa's case early and we need to wait till April court dates. I have hit a all time low for me in adoption. At this point I am so discouraged I actually question if I would want to adopt again? (this is a first for me) I KNOW I have made it harder on myself by visiting the babies twice. I KNEW it would make it harder to wait for them after spending so much time with them. Mike and I just felt that even though it makes our wait more painful, the benefits outweighed our pain.

I KNOW I can trust God in this situation. I just feel weak, discouraged and broken hearted. It is a good place to be to come to God but it sure hurts now.

New photos of baby Assefa show him realy healthy and big! He is growing up without a family. He is HIV+ and needs to be home with medical care here! Gezehegn doesn't look as healthy as Assefa. Poor Gezehegn looks neglected and hungry. There are no words to say how sad it is for him to be there and He needs to be home!

I have kept the reciepts from all the "retail therapy" I have done the last nine months since starting this adoption. Today I am going to return all the baby boy clothes for they will all be too small for Assefa by the time he comes home. "If" he passes court April 3rd, travel won't be till mid May. He will be almost 11 months old then. I am done with retail therapy and won;t buy another thing until they pass court and we have an embassey date.

I have some more upbeat news to share and will be sending some Happy Birthday posts out as soon as I find my camera cord to upload photos.

thanks for listening
Julee

6 comments:

Lisa said...

Julee, I am so sad for you and the boys. I truly wish I could help. I will pray for you. You can always vent to me.
Love and hugs, Lisa

Thankfulmom said...

Julee,
I'm sorry that the waiting is dragging on. It is so very painful.
Lisa

Jillian and Crew said...

Sorry this is taking forever!!! Can't wait to hear the babies are home with you!

Signe said...

We will keep praying for you Julee. I am so sorry that it is taking so long.

Denise said...

Julee,
I am sorry for your extremley long wait.I know how you feel.I am waiting on our little boy to come home from Liberia and are caught in a suspension.Our son has severe cp and is in need of medical care.I will say a prayer for you and hope this does not keep Dragging on.

Chantelle said...

I'm so sorry to hear of an extended wait. :( I know the pain of that waiting, as so many of us do. ((hug))